03:35 Jul 10 2010
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You are a fucking tool.
I wish I would have realized how much of a tool you really were the first time I seen you lurking about. Then again I guess it takes a bit to see the true colors come through.
Did you think I was fucking kidding when I said what I did last Monday?
You: ttyl
Me: No probably not.
You: Why?
Me: because I really just don't want too.
Did you THINK I was fucking kidding? Because I wasn't. I was DONE on that day. So sick of hearing your "I'm sorry I can't come see you. I don't have gas money." I've offered to give you money. I didn't see you in a month. A FUCKING month. And then you went and spend 80 bucks on some bullshit stupid tattoo that says 'straightedge'. Holy Fucking high school, batman. You are 27 fuckin' act like it.
I deleted all your shit last week. Every phone that had your number on it was erased. Your yahoo name also erased. Then you have the nerve to send me an offline message 7 days AFTER the Monday I said that to you.. and you say.. and I quote:
" i dont whats going on between us.but something changed along the way.somehow someway something has changed within the last month or so.i havent been able to come up due to lack of money for gas.and i feel like you hold a grudge against me for that.Im not quite sure how many times i have to say im sorry,but im not quite sure where there is a future between each other.were not talking to one another,i was waiting for you to call me and im sure your waiting for me to call you.im not sure if what we have will last much longer.i can tell that your not happy with me,and i dont really know why.but i think we should go our seperate ways.this is what i feel.if you want the gifts back,i understand and i can mail them to your house if you like i just dont know what to do.I have been given a chance to move out of my mothers house and im thinking about taking it.that would mean im moving out of state
: and i might be doing that really soon.so i wanted to let you know whats been going on.if you never want to speak to me again i understand.i'll see you around sometime."
My response:
Lainey Pie: There is no 'us'. It's 'you' and 'me'. That's the way it's pretty much been. You can keep the stuff it was a gift. Good Luck with your move.
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Oh but there is so much more I wanted to say after I fucking sat here and thought about it.
Your sorries didn't mean shit. It was always a sorry.. sorry.. sorry. I was so sick of your sorries that I wanted to vomit.
Why would I want the stuff back that I gave you? You've fucking touched it. I don't want it now. I want NOTHING to remind me of you.
I'm not going to fucking chase after you and call you. Fuck you and fuck that. I'm not one of those ignorant little chicks that you dated that have no self esteem and worship the ground you walk on. I didn't NEED you. And I DON'T NEED you.
I really, HIGHLY, doubt you are moving out of state. I am pretty sure you wanted me to fawn all over you and say ' Oh baby, don't leave me you mean everything to me. I can't live without you." Once again.. fuck that and fuck you. I'd be more than happy to give you a way one trip off the tip of my foot you immature asshat.
I can't FUCKING BELIEVE you 'don't know what went wrong along the way." I've talked to your stupid ass about shit you've did that hurt my feelings numerous times. I won't stand for that. So... let me write it in a fucking list for you:
1. First time you said to me you were going to hang out with your EX-GIRLFRIEND. Uhm, no, Lainey don't play that game. I am not a jealous person, but I know how ex's work. And I'm not down with that. So without considering my feelings your mouth overrode your ass that time.
2. You were talking about getting a new car. You listed small b.s. cars. I said Why do you always have to look at small cars. You're answer to me.. I'm not getting an SUV. And then told me uhm you can fit into a focus. You stupid ass motherfucker. Once again thinking about yourself. Your 'girlfriend' is handicapped. After I had to remind you about my braces you said.. Oh I completely forgot. Blah Blah. Eat a dick you, stupid shit stain.
3. Tell me all weekend that you think you are going to be able to come here. I planned on giving you gas money. Then suddenly I get a message chit-chatting.. and you saying " I'm going to hang out with my friend today." Fuck you.. you were supposed to come see me. Oh but then after I say " I guess that means you aren't coming here.. you say Oh no i don't have enough money." And then I get pissy and you tell me " It's not fair.. I am trying to rekindle a relationship with my friend I haven't seen in 9 years". What are you going to do.. rekindle his dick in your ass? How about your rekindle some time with the person you claim to love,dick stick.
4. I get pissy and tell you that you can wait to come up until the next time you get paid. I was pissy. The next day.. I left you an offline that I did want you to come up. Then you get online and say.. Well, I can't I spend my 20 bucks I saved to come up. ( I did offer to give him gas money for going home and make sure he had enough for the week.) You then change the subject and tell me you went and spent 80 bucks on a stupid tattoo. W T F. You say you want to be with me, spend time with me and then you do that stupid shit. You could have saved that and had money to come up here at least 4 times. And then You wanted ME to give you gas money for that Monday? AFTER you put 80 bucks aside to get a tattoo? I only get paid once a month and it's not even close enough to live on. But here I was planning to go without just so we could maybe spend time together.
5. I gave you once last change to get your shit together and come up Monday. Once again you failed. You were out of my life that day.
I was DONE.
I've talked to you. Told you we need to slow down because I think you are only into the IDEA of having me as a girlfriend, not actually having a girlfriend. Boy how right was I?
You stopped calling me like you were. All you wanted to do was talk about things that revolved around you. Your stupid music and your fucking annoying bass guitar and you don't even FUCKING HAVE. I don't CARE about that shit. When I tried to talk to you about shit I am into you changed the subject back to you, you self centered douche.
I've TOLD you all that.
I am not a 'when you get a change to spend time with me' kinda of girl. If you want to be with me, you better damn well be with me.
But then again you talked a good game. You are nothing more than a little boy. You claimed you were a man, but let me tell you, your balls weren't even close to dropping. I released the reins so you could take control and you couldn't even handle that.
You weren't dominant, you were just a self centered bag of douche. I seriously want to punch you in the dick. And I am not a violent person, but I would so enjoy just punching you in that thing you call a cock.
I am so glad I never had full blown sex with you. I'd be attacking my vajayjay with bleach and a brillo pad still.
So over you.
I hope you get herpies. =]
COMMENTS
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LadyRayneofDarklight
03:16 Jul 26 2010
*giggles* That amuses me...
MidnightDarkness
04:00 Jul 26 2010
agreed!